When you become a mother

The ones I love 

Have you ever asked yourself, "Am I ready to be a mom?"  "Would I be a good parent?" "Could I handle the responsibility of raising a child?"

With Mother's Day approaching, I've been reflecting on how much my life and myself has changed over the last four years.  My husband and I always knew we wanted to have children but I never had that strong urge or heard my clock ticking so to speak.  We just got to a point in our lives where we thought it was the right time.  Even when we decided to have our second child, I wondered if I was capable of loving two children equally and fully.

Throughout my pregnancies, I was a mix of emotions from excited, happy, anxious and afraid.  "Was I ready to be a mother to one or even two children?"

And then, something magical happens.  You labor, you push, you breathe.  Suddenly, a precious little goo-covered person is placed on your chest and you gaze into their eyes for the first time and you fall utterly and completely in love.  It's that simple.  In that very instant, you cannot imagine your life without them.  You would do anything to protect, love and nurture this little person.  

You become a mother.

I vividly remember the very first thought that came into my head when I held my oldest son for the first time.  I thought to myself, "There must certainly be life after death because the love that I feel in this very moment cannot be expressed in the years I have left on this Earth."  My heart was filled with an eternal love that is so deep and so unconditional that it is hard to put into words.  And the second time around with my younger son, the love doubled and the joy I felt while holding him in my arms was indescribable.

Now that I am a mother, I often reflect back on my own childhood and recall every lecture, word of caution and warning my mom constantly gave to my sisters and I.  I remember how she would endlessly tell us how much she loved us and how special we were to her.  I'm sure we rolled our eyes at her many of times over her enormous displays of affection.  But it all makes sense now.  Every single last bit of it.  

And so in preparation of Mother's Day, I'd like to tell my mother thank you for loving me from day one, through the good and the bad.  You are an incredible role model and friend.  I feel so very, very blessed that you are in my life and in the lives of my children. 

Happy Mother's Day.  I love you.

Mom and all her grandkids
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5 comments:

  1. Such a sweet post! Happy early Mother's Day!

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  2. Aw, thank you for making me tear up so early in the morning!!

    I hope you have a wonderful Mother's Day!!!

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  3. I don't have kids yet, so I'm always questioning when I'll feel ready and what kind of mother I'll be. I'm so glad you shared this! It makes me feel confident and hopeful and excited for the future.

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  4. Seriously tearing up here! What a great post---I don't have children yet, but so look forward to these moments. Thank you for sharing.

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  5. So sweet, Amy! Happy Mother's Day to you!
    Liz

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